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00600 Let me tell you about an incident that happened
00700 while I was still in Cleveland. For this you need some
00800 background. I was born in Wadsworth Ohio, which is a small
00900 town a short distance west of Akron. At the time, my father
01000 was in the Army and stationed (I believe) in Texas, or some
01100 such place. After I was born, we moved around the country
01200 as my father was transfered from base to base for a year or
01300 so, then settled in Wadsworth. For a while we lived with my
01400 mother's parents in Wadsworth, and then my father built a
01500 house there and we lived in it until I was five. Then we
01600 moved to Buffalo, and the rest of the story of all the
01700 places we moved is fairly long and not relevant to the story
01800 I am trying to get on with. Anyway, we lived in Wadsworth
01900 until I was five, and my paternal grandmother, as well as
02000 several aunts and uncles, still live there.
02100 For a long time, I have had a memory of an incident
02200 which must have happened (if at all) when I was very young.
02300 The memory has a rather dream-like quality to it, and for
02400 a long time I was not sure it really happened -- it might
02500 in fact have been a dream. The incident as I remember it
02600 is that I am with my mother and we have gone to the house
02700 of someone she knows, but I do not. I am very young and
02800 have been placed on a blanket on some piece of furniture
02900 (a trunk?) in the livingroom. I remember a little about
03000 the arrangement of the house, and this is important. As
03100 you enter the house, you are in a short hall. On your
03200 right is a large doorway into the livingroom, where I have
03300 been placed. Ahead of you, at the end of the hall, is a
03400 stairway to the floor above, and, four or five steps up
03500 this stairway, on the right, is a door. This door is the
03600 important thing. As a child, I am completely fascinated
03700 by this door which opens in the wall, part way up the
03800 stairs. It seems somehow magical. After my mother has
03900 left me for a while, I somehow get down from where I am
04000 and go up the stairs. I don't recall how I got down, or
04100 whether I can walk, or must crawl; my interest is fixed
04200 on that door. I reach the door and look through, and I
04300 am looking into a kitchen, which is down some stairs
04400 from the door. In the kitchen are several women who say
04500 hello to me. The kitchen has a door into the back yard.
04600 There the memory, or dream, ends.
04700 I have on frequent occasion mentioned this memory
04800 to my mother, but she has never been able to remember it
04900 or to remember any house she has ever been in which is
05000 arranged as I described. We have discussed it at some
05100 length several times, and the best she could suggest was
05200 that it may have been one of the houses she was in briefly
05300 while my father was in the Army.
05400 So much for background (this is pretty long, isn't
05500 it). The Sunday after we returned from Canada, we (that is
05600 to say, my mother and father and Todd and I) went to visit
05700 my grandmother, who is living in Wadsworth. My grandfather
05800 died several years ago, and shortly afterwards, my grandmother
05900 moved in with her daughter, who was living, with her husband
06000 and children, in Wadsworth. Several months ago, my uncle
06100 bought a new house. That is to say, the house was fairly
06200 old, but new to the family. So it was to this house that we
06300 went to visit my grandmother (my aunt and uncle were out of
06400 town). When we got there, we went in and sat around and
06500 talked for a bit, me not paying too much attention. Then
06600 we all went for a drive around town, to see the houses we
06700 had lived in and so on. When we got back, we walked into
06800 the house, and as I entered, I looked down the short hall,
06900 and there at the end was a stairway with a door on the
07000 right wall, part way up. I stopped, and I got this very
07100 spooky feeling. It was similar to the feeling that something
07200 has happened before, but much stronger, and much spookier.
07300 I turned to my mother, who by now had noticed that something
07400 was up, and I said, "Have I ever been in this house?"
07500 She said no, and I said "That door goes to the kitchen."
07600 She said yes, and I said "Do you remember that memory
07700 I have that I keep asking you about? Well, this is the
07800 house."
07900 As is generally the case in small towns, everyone
08000 knows the life history of everyone else. The house used
08100 to belong to the Simester family. (Pronounced with the
08200 accent on the first syllable.) My mother went to school
08300 with, and was friends with, a Pat Simester, who lived in
08400 that house. After much reflection, she finally remembered
08500 that she had visited Pat Simester, in that house, and taken
08600 me along, in the spring of 1946. I was born in February, 1944.
08700 Anyway, that's the story. They say it is unusual
08800 to be able to remember a specific incident from the age of two,
08900 and it gave me a spooky feeling which lasted for days. To me,